Burn the Boats
Every day A little more of the same Raised on a routine With little to no flame Love yourself more Than you did yesterday Signal to shore We're self-quarantined and highly unlikely Little birdy told me simmer it down You're failing the family tree Not a one to want to wear it all it out But who are you aching to be? The mind set The reflex coming down Burn the boats, we're living here all the time Burn the boats, we're living here all the time
Electric Chair
Sent away To my electric chair Don't know what I was thinking Fooling myself and heading your way A tired showcase shutting down the evening All I know is a man has a ceiling And i'm afraid we're already there What's left means more than we can see We take relief, but we want to believe Behave the way we do, when no one's watching You figure out the guess work Sugar coated, safe and sound And i'll figure out how the rest works Barely hid, but rarely found Sent away To my electric chair Don't know what I was thinking All I know is you will find me there Mostly after-hours
Gasmask
The gasmask will leave you fast asleep Hurry up, you'll be just fine The sedatives are essential for everything The beats will always beat in time Harboring your long-lost resentment And worried 'bout the things you might've been You're over it now The backlash will cut you twice as deep Hurry up, you're losing time A detrimental daydream, losing steam Ok, alright, I get it It's fine Harboring your long-lost resentment Don't worry 'bout the things you might've been You're over it now And now, we survive On the heartbeats we divide And now, we survive On the heartbeats we divide Like a Siamese twin in the womb Jealous and selfish And wishing for more room
Flagstaff
And i'm your peace of mind In your sedentary state Way too late for the taking And i'm your backup plan Say it again A deadly sin in the making And you, with perfect maps An elegant deathtrap A fleeting glimpse that isn't fading And we, were meant to be So mark the map And fall into Flagstaff Hold me close I'm feeling so much older I'm where I need to be Electric sound I see the ground I will pull up I won't let you down I will pull up I won't let you down
If/When
Melting out of my head Your memory It rolls way down Silent sequence surfaces a remedy And it pulls you down And all that was ever said Is stretched in front of me Like a constellation Circling the sky Falling out of my bed A melody Holding hands with you tonight And all that was ever said Is loud and clear to me But it still remains It doesn't change Day away There's a stack of antique photographs Unaware of when you might be coming back To sort it out and help me find The places that we left behind But hey, aren't you looking? For the one that's so familiar? The one thing that keeps you coming back? If it's so, please let me know Because this if and when Just jumped the track
Second Chance
I'm lazy eyed and listing To circumvent the listening Safely rescinding the sound Unfurling the wing Un-synchronizing everything Safely retracing my steps down south And you're gone, with nothing to see They drained it so suddenly I wanted to just let it be Just like the rest of me Mom, they're coming for me They're coming in stereo I wanted to just let it be Just like the video Harness your horses and fly Into the anagram There's weightlessness there if you try Unfolding the master plan A final reset analogy Storming the threshold without me It lights up when you put it down Requesting a second chance Awaiting a second chance I wanted to just let it be
Tradewinds
wooden duck set free tedium not me side by side deep sea pirouette not me hovering above like a charm of hummingbirds i get glimpses now and then but i cauterize the end and do i have to resize this compartment again? because now i know you can't and now i know i can tradewinds blow settle down nowhere to go no sound our feet leave the ground all sight no sound hovering above like a rabble of butterflies i get glimpses now and then but i give away the end because now i know you can't and now i know i can kaleidoscope when i wipe my eyes
Glimmer
slightest chance of happening glimmer come to me i was told you would believe but now it's haunting me hey. it's really happening glimmer like the sea i was told you'd bring relief but now it's killing me. tell me why you're winding it tighter wearing the stares around the room i hope is don't know it or show it too soon. glowing. the need in me. come back down and compromise with me it's hard enough with all these changes life is so contagious and all the time we wrap it in wires tearing the air from the room i hope i don't mean it or leave it too soon slightest chance of happening glimmer more than me the lost and found is dimly lit and now it's calling me
Fuerte
can't be late it'll signify defeat if i'm not on my way won't let it get to me, i'll sit up straight and be a little more... to redefine to find a space, a place where we can all be kind it matters what you say and how you say it so be a little more... tell me why you're always shining because the screens around me smell like dying be my lighthouse, my steady state and i can wait to be a little more to be a little more...
Glimmer (Solo Piano)
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Oleander
oleander sits alone in the corner with his xylophone and dreams of notes that coltrane would've stolen given half the chance but birdland rarely feels the breeze as charlie swims with bumble bees and miles digs deep into his pockets for a fix and i'd die for the energy you put into him he's learning on my time and i'd die for the energy you put into him he's learning on my time mr. sagebrush sits alone in the corner with his megaphone and dreams of words that pablo would've stolen given half the chance but my room rarely feels the breeze these love songs swim like bumble bees all the tenants dig deep into their pockets for a fix and i'd die for the energy you put into him he's learning on my time and i'd die for the energy you put into him he's learning on my time
Palo Verde
day one old palo verde sign right here, dotted line trying to transplant from another life struggling daily here barely getting by I don't know if I can save you if you're too far gone I doubt that you can live here anymore I don't know if I can raise you too sick for medicine it complicates the fixing all the time and I know these roots were damaged by my moves and I know these things take time we all want the same things so drop the guessing game just to love and to be loved seasons change re-route the feeling we try our best to hold the line eager to eek out a quiet life but its way too loud here inside don't know I can brave it if I'm this afraid I doubt that you can hear me anymore don't know if I can stave it off it's a failing scheme it complicates the fixing all the time and I know these roots were damaged by my moves and I know these things take time we all want the same things so drop the guessing game to love and to be loved and I know that these roots were damaged by my moves and I know these things take time we all want the same things so drop the guessing game to love and to be loved...
Chameleon (Badgerland Demo)
chameleon right or wrong changing from the inside without a reservation will you miss me when I'm gone? hard to read the landscape shift into a new shape blackbirds roost inside of me terrified of making a change won't stay the same just save your good intentions for a rainy day and If there's nothing left out of scope with twists and turns we'll never really know and if the whole thing is one big joke won't you let me in? I can't keep changing
701AM
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Crooked Teeth
harmony leaking through my crooked teeth harness all of the things you see barely breaking it clean wait and see digging through the deepest depths of me holding to all of the cards you see planning to set it all free if we single out a slice of time to outline what it means bursting at the seams overgrown tales too tall to call my own on this long walk home recovery seeping through a crippled reef rising like the deep blue sea tiny hands coming for me balance beam reconciling all of the in-betweens building a synapse that sets us free swollen hearts heading for me if we set aside a slice of time to redefine what it means bursting at the seams overblown tales too tall to call my own on this long walk home
Red Letter Day
grand reset right in front of me unravel the reasons inside of me old broken bones slowing me down aligning all my plans like a symphony hijack it back - devil inside of me serenading softly on through the night head on home I hear your labored breathing no need to stay awake brushfire smoke blocks the getaway saving it up for a red letter day no use in complaining it'll only make your head spin wasting days in this reverie desert stars form a canopy drifting off the tail lights fade away we don't need much we don't need anything to turn it around on this red letter day i'll let you in I know your labored breathing no need to hide away brushfire smoke blocks the getaway saving it up for a red letter day no use in complaining it'll only make your head spin come down my defenseless reverie no use in restraining reset and let it in
Untitled
I don't want to be the one who's always guessing don't take advantage of me when i'm counting all the good there's nothing here to see when i'm learning all my lessons of what it means to be in the moment and rarely understood I can't really believe that this is something worth discussing but I want to be neighborly and get along but I can't really guarantee where the line is drawn today and all the little buttons you push along the way upended tables and chairs we can't revisit it lonesome dove the sky clear blue with the dust resettling in empty jug no stars above the blankets soaked again all I see is all we need it's lost it's breath again and all the rhetoric you sing me there's nothing temporary anymore and all the gears that grind beneath me why don't we? turn over a new leaf turn over a new leaf and when you finally loosen it come along and when you finally say you're sorry and you are were wrong a clear conscience at the risk of lying alone and when you finally sleep on it come home
Descansos
alone in the tapestry might as well head out tonight glowing embers inside of me head rush, head rush beware of the chain link fence rusted out from the sea the tendrils and desert thorns crawling their way back to me it burned to the ground and now there's a shrine disintegrate on your back and climb up inside it's not an assumption that you'll see but I know what I know i'm not ready to go it's all we can ask of each other restless bones in the 505 a parallel kind of sea buried treasure inside of me head rush, head rush beware of the winding roads they're full of descansos you see where the pinyon permeates everything reaching back out for me the family slid off the side and now there's a shrine with the weather beating it down fall colors behind i visit it when I can but it feels like less every year but I know what I know i'm just trying to grow it's all we can ask of each other
Honorable Mention
slow down a little I hear your fortress fell down split right through the middle with all the architects clearing town so wait... for the attention they never forget the legacy seize the tools we need it's the only way to rebuild our history and if I get it wrong and I didn't mean to and if I took too long it wasn't for lack of trying to see you you know I fashion myself a fixer but there's certain things that I can't change I need a vacant mind and to take my time for all my intentions and honorable mentions and if I get it wrong and I didn't mean to and if I took too long it wasn't for lack of trying to see you inch by inch it's getting taller year after year I'm getting smaller with the landslide galloping into the sea if this goes any longer, please replace me I don't want to be like a lost battalion stranded in an enemy town where the best laid battle plans are failed and the last train out of town now derailed with my land-locked blues behind me and a sea of deserts right beside me inch by inch a little deeper and the pathway down a little steeper with my fortress vanishing into the sea if this goes any longer, consider retracing me and if I get it wrong and I didn't mean to (settle for the honorable mention) and if I took too long (settle for the honorable mention) it wasn't for lack of trying to see you my honorable mention
Field Notes
I was once in the arms of a story taking field notes and wandering free turning all of the pages that could be until I found what I needed to see take time fine line to chase it down along the way I hold the same sentiment... it could be so I ran to the arms of another and we swayed while the grey disappeared finding all of the faults in our pages writing down all the things that we feared blue skies blurry eyes to settle it down along the way scraping like we never said we would be taking field notes along the way taking field notes along the way
Outside Within
so new now learning to grow in the ways that you know but you'll never remember and always I'll be in your mind with a thought that's too kind for the image I'm sowing away keeping you close building around all the towers you're starting to climb high outside within I've known you my whole life but I don't know when outside within the outside within is the place I am in with you now I've grown out of my recent skin which you seem to fit nicely how's that for an irony? I can't wait to see what you do with it on your own folded and turned warmed with a past that was waiting on you to sublime now it's time outside within is my general feeling I've known you my whole life but I don't know when outside within is the place I am in outside within outside within with you now… right now outside within, with you now (now, right now) so new now learning to grow in the ways that you know but you'll never remember and always I'll be in your mind with a thought that's too kind while I'm outside within with you now
Untitled (Reprise)
Instrumental
Sea of Deserts
It's in the way you reset the ceiling don't want to make it too easy across the sea of deserts I work from the inside to set you free but there's something in the way you keep us off balance and guessing but I can't control these things or change the feeling in me It's in the way you hold your hair back when you face face first into the wind It's in the smile you're always nursing right behind the surface where it lives across the sea come what may all roots need attention there's no room for error around here across the sea of deserts I work from the inside to put you here but there's something in the way you keep us off balance and guessing but I can't control these things or change direction in me but as far as the eye there ain't a way to stop it across the sea of deserts in me there's a garden so visit when you can I wanna see you blooming and fit in when you can I wanna feel you blooming
Five
the sun crept through and drew a number five I turn to you when the patterns appear It's an early stage communication from another place It's a simple way to embrace the change that's looming contingency number five all dressed up for checkbox number five I lean on you when the patterns appear It's a stable state collaboration from another place It's a simple way to navigate what's coming put me down like a remedy your side effects are healing to me wear me out like a tendency wrap your tendrils around me pull the shades we're staying in 'til five i sleep on you when the patterns appear It's a final state appreciation from another place It's a simple way to embrace the change that's looming put me down like a remedy your side effects are healing to me wear me out like a tendency wrap your tendrils around me so sit with me the tourniquet is tightening lie with me the distances are widening all these self imposed deadlines and meantimes... and skylines... and you
Past the Ending
you say that it's more than a phase you reach out in the morning maybe it gets in the way the recoil without warning but I don't know but I stopped pretending long ago past the ending If there's something in the way we can afford it maybe it's ready to stay burrowing into the bone but I don't know why I'm rearranging but there you go past the ending you say that it's better this way to concur and believe you but I'm lacking the patience today but I'm trying to see through but I don't know why it's disappearing but there it goes past the ending
601PM
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